Wednesday the middle to nowhere

The middle of week is usually a time to take a breath and gas yourself up to finish the week with a flourish. Only that's not how it works for me. Take today for example me and one of my nieces who is 2 wake up and stare at each other. I ask her if she will carry me to the bath room since the throbbing in my knees tells me that's gonna take a minute and put me in a world of hurt. She says nothing just giggles so I lay there and wonder how long it takes a bladder to burst. Then I shake my head at that thought cuz seriously I'm too cute to have to use a catheter 24/7. I just have to walk thru the pain. So I slowly swing my legs to the end of the bed debating if I want to sit up or not. I say loudly enough for my niece to hear, " Titi is going potty do you need to pee too? " More giggling then some some chinese-german-french sounding gibberish explodes from her mouth which only the word pee pee was clear. So I say, " OK go to the potty I'll meet you there. " I feel her bounce the bed and I brace myself since every bounce jars my body to my very soul. I figure might as well sit up since falling on the floor and doing the snake to the bathroom is too exhausting to even think about let alone actually doing. Fast forward to lunch time. I sat on the floor in the kitchen to make my niece a sandwich. Why you ask, because standing took to much effort. Then I crawled to the living and my niece tried to climb on my back the whole way I guess she thought we was playing horsey. Well her horsey died in the middle of the living room. Fast forward to 2hrs later its time to pick up my daughter then go to physical therapy. So I sit and meditate to try and wipe the pain from my face, the frustration that nothing got accomplished today and put on the 'well put together life is peachy' face the world expects and walk gingerly to my car and drive stiffly away.  If you asked me how I enjoy not working since I get to do what ever because my time is my own I'd kick you but I probably wouldn't have the energy. I ended my day back in bed in tears because my daughter hugged me too hard and everything hurts and I just want a break.  Yeah Wednesday is just the middle of the week for you for me its just another day one.