ugh

 11:00am 

Today actually isn't bad and if I get my puppy today it will be all better. I'm flaring so I'm just chilling in bed trying to convince myself to not roll over and not close my eyes and dream of not being in my body. 

Its been a battle lol. I actually have been in my bed so much that I hate it. I wish couches were as comfortable. Being in my bed for more than sleep makes me feel ill. Its like a sickness miasma is seeping from the bed. 

6:00pm

We got a puppy and I'm so excited to have a companion when my kids aren't around. Also he is just gonna be good for my soul. Also I'm reading this book called Heavy and for 300 pages  it is deep I'm only on the third chapter and Ive been triggered as a parent and as a child. This healing journey is no joke, but I'm glad I'm finally on a path that feels right. 

I just wanted to touch in cuz ya'll fam and you deserve to know fibro aint winning not today